>>22803613better to stay away from drugs, and i dont mean that in a "drugs are le bad for you" way i mean that as someone who still desperately wants to try breaking through on dmt
psychadelics and dxm fucked me up bad, in a way i cant really describe
its like, psychadelics taught me that consciousness can be changed and warped beyond what should be possible, doing shrooms for the first time was on the same level as like finding solid evidence of god or enlightenment, and it was incredible
but i learned the hard way that as incredible as it can be a bad experience can traumatize you for life like shellshock during a war
i used to trip fine but one time i took it and i realized how i was losing control of my body, and the utter helplessness was incomprehensibly terrifying, and my body started treating the psychadelics in my system like a poison reacting to it badly with pain spreading all across my body, like the devil was strangling every nerve in my body and brain
and its not just psychadelics, but any drug i try that does it now, other than alcohol or nicotine
i went to the ER twice because of it thinking maybe it was a seizure or something worse but both times they said i was completely fine and didnt have anything happen to me
and it was humiliating because they acted like i was fine and was just faking it or like it was just the effects of the drug making me panic
you will have the experience of a lifetime when you die, so put down the drugs and enjoy a coherent, sober life while you have it
sorry if thats a little much i just wanna get it off my chest
