>>10217898>he thinks I'm doing it for other people's attractionHAH, did I never mention the incognito tactic? the try not to oust yourself as the outsider and nobody pays any attention to you?
like I get sweat pouring down the entirity of my skin when I just THINK that people on the bus are looking at me because I stand out for this or that reason, I'm at brink of tears when people actually are looking at me
>>10217907I'm going to use my 3rd and last "too high to understand" excuse for not reading that link till the end
>understand yourselfthere are some things that may never see the light of day, I keep those under lock and key and start bangning my head against the wall if I accidentally remember them, those are the things not even I can know about
>I don't existtell me something new, I knew that for years that every time I fall asleep "I" effectively die and get replaced by a similiar "I" that is suspiciously skeptical of "my" past choices
extend that to "yoh die every time the information in your brain changes" and you get to higher order maths that I can't understand not even in theory and purpousfully dwelve in the more simpler bay area
