>>15467800well, you could start by having normal expectation of yourself and a realistic view on your abilities. most of us will have a normal life and you are included in the most of us. you sound like you are craving constant validation but the only people validating you dont do it for honest reasons. you sound like you want people to treat you like someone who is very special, but that wont happen if you dont have the results. you say you will do stuff for the greater good and and be a hero but you sound like you just desire a "hero" title so people would validate you as someone special. you believe youre very special, and thats probably a cope you developed, but you dont achieve anything special but thats "okay because you will do something special one day and they will see how special you are". this all might just be a cope for your severe insecurities (which would mean you could fix this) or fully developed npd (which would mean you probably cant fix this). well, this is what my unlicensed therapist brain thinks about you
>>15467818i am jelly
