>>17360776She will love you if you are a neet at her house, you should find a way to not feel so much shame that it leads to being isolated, its a pretty mean trick in our minds that allows us to fall into a repeating cycle of having out energy drained by negative thinking patterns(spiritual battle stuff) the modus operandi is clear when something leads us to separation from our closest ones. I don't keep old friends anymore, but our lives aren't simpatico anymore, the lifelong friends (which isn't many) that I haven't spoken to will probably be glad to spark up some kind of chat occasionally even now(, and the ones who I'm not interested in doing that with are too different. In a world where it seems hard now to find tribes striving to get family to get a little closer and healing the damaged years of strife, so much of it being worldly benign material matters in most of our cases, wanting to be "successful" and earn fathers approval and whatnot, it just seems empty and I didn't want to have any of it, but I don't want to give up on trying to strengthen those bonds and let the love I want to spread to flourish with souls who care. At this point if I got the opportunity to start a family, I'd want to be living as a disciple of Jesus, being a Christian and following his commandments I don't like making compromises anymore, thats what always makes me feel like running away from the fake reality I keep finding everywhere, having to ignore what I know is right to'fit-in' to the perverse status quo. Added a lot of my own blog and viewpoints but this is what I think would greatly give me fulfillment personally a lesser path would feel like a fraud to me, or like I didn't reach a truthful end accepting some comforting counterfeit. I pray for all of us that feel quite a bit or just a little lost. Right now I'm living in some kind of denial but I think I have a pretty good idea of the path I want to go.
