>>11553671i don't understand what you're saying, but i will try to translate it depending on my own views:
you feel like your life is going through a shifting point very soon, no matter how hard it might be, we have to face such things, be strong and be prepared for it, what comes after depends on your actions
you also think people are hard to socialize with, noisy, annoying, boring, but you also blame yourself for this view, and in the end, you think it all doesn't matter
believe me, we as humans, survived through socializing, understanding each other, helping ourselves and our frens, you may not find this kind of people now but you will, maybe they are really near you but you don't recognize them, and as for the meaning, you create it.
you're scared over the nothingness? how all what you have done will end up as nothing?
you know when it ends, it ends, but if you mindate enough you will realize that you live in the present, this is the most important fact you need to accept, what comes after that, doesn't depend on you, you have lived your life, however it was
as for raining in the desert, i don't live in one but since everyone think iraq is a desert, i would tell you that rains here are pretty comfy and nice.