I haven't touched not even a single one of my studies ever since I failed that test
I just get overwhelmed by a rush of ill feel and cold sweat, a lot similiar to the feeling when I realised I was going to die had I not struggled from the rope
it's like getting shot by electricity every time I open my laptop or script, I just can't force myself for those 4 tests
is this fear, or is this knowledge of impending doom
oh how I miss that feeling of security that no matter what I'll be perfectly fine
>>10860468just narc yourself out full of drugs and you're system will destroy itself almost entirely allbeing for a fresh start
>never watched lucky star, never plan to, had a chance to download it to a brown girl in hs that had limited internet but I skipped on it because SoL wasn't my thing back thenI mostly sub to scientific and comedic channels
paranoia only works when you're alone, I found you can't control what others say and do so it's for the best to isolate and never get close to anyone
>that's pretty one sided way to look at it given how every progress has it's downsides and acts as regress, not to mention selfish individuals that regressed the world progressed themselvesremove 60% of the population, keep the machines and institute capable individuals in positions of power and industry, I'd be glad to personally off myself to that cause, shame that 60% of the useless populus would never
>I'm sorry but you seem to fotget that albatroses tend to never mate once their mate catches a date with death, penguins picking best looking pebbles for fems etc etc thaf's more affection than one can expect from humansI've been aware of it since forever, however unless theres coitus involved in the first place I'm frankly not interested
