>>22115698i rarely allow myself that and quite frankly nowadays i just cannot justify acting like an ape retard at all, it's always just better to be neutral towards everything even when you can't be neutral and when your blood is boiling and your teeth pulsating it's still better to just mask your frustration rather than try to explain it or even worse spill it onto someone because it's all momentary and people always remember your moments of weakness so if you just don't have those your life will be a lot easier and it's always a skill issue in the first place, you can just train yourself not to get mad which is obviously a hard virtue to master but at the end of the day what you feel is the only thing that matters and if you learn to avoid feeling shitty then you've pretty much conquered the world, and yeah i feel that too and it does help being aware of your actions and emotions and there's an odd satisfaction in being nice and understandable of people even if it's just for the sake of keeping the status quo and not looking like a weird guy, even if i think that everyone sucks it doesn't mean i should act like some fucking psychopath and shit on everything because i do believe that no one deserves being treated like crap right from the start but you still gotta always stay vigilant and you gotta know where to draw the line and have some breathing space
