>>8274078Greatness isn't something that you can have if you just so wish it. What you think you have told us in your messages was that you had not found your true calling and that a bland life was not what you wished for nor what was good for you.
What you have really told us is that you are unable to focus on anything for any long period of time. The existential dread you think you feel is just idle boredom. If you truly want to achieve greatness, you must first make yourself great.
For that, you must center yourself, discover who you are deep down past the veneer of delusions and empty dreams. Those great novels and musical pieces weren't made by idle hands. They were sometimes made by mad men, sometimes by visionnaries, sometimes by revolutionnaries. Yet they all have one thing in common. They were made by people of focus, people that knew what they wanted and what they were capable of.
You are not yet one of them. You may never be. If you blindly try to emulate them, you will most certainly never suceed. Once again: center yourself, find what makes you tick, what you want to do and be, and then work from there.
tl;dr: do not chase after greatness, you will only stand still. Give yourself the tools to be great, and then move.