I lost a lot and i want them to suffer.. I lost a girl i loved and tried to conceal it behind weight lifting, drinking and partying. Before i used to dump girls but this is diffrent i felt an actual connection to her that in other girls i didnt before. I even left my gf for her while we dated.. Even that i was able to get over and then i had quit my job as a forklift assistant cuz i wasnt felling like it anymore. I took a vacation with my gf to Greece and took 600$ to buy new designer clothes. Bought a shit ton of Diesel stuff and 250$ leather jacket.. and the company i traveled with lost it all. I had around 2500$ worth of stuff in the suitcase containing some pretty important stuff..
Ill dump this girl and ask the other one to meet me again so we can start over. If i fail ill finally snap, ill let fellow Balkan Anons report news of my final days and send streaming links all over 4chan..