I'm pretty ashamed to admit that I am severely addicted to gay countryhumans porn (specifically between Russia and America) And it's not only when masturbating, (though yes, it is the only thing that turns me on anymore) but it's also the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning and what I think about as I fall asleep. I keep a group of tabs with smut of the ship on chrome at all times, or some regular safe drawing or video of them, just whiling away my time switching between the two, and every time I do, I get either a huge dopamine rush or a huge feeling of dread. I legit can't even get through a day with out looking at something related to it. The biggest problem with this is that all the content I consume was drawn by the same artist- some random 13 year old on the internet. Sometimes when I'm masturbating I remember that a kid drew it and I'm immediately disgusted with both the porn and myself. But her artstyle is the only one that appeases me, (and her personification of Russia is really hot for some reason omfg) I am quite literally addicted. This has been going on for over 8 months and I genuinely can't make it stop no matter how much I want it to. I've began to hate myself even more than I already did and my degeneracy is going to push me over the edge very soon I believe.