>>19034213alright
can you get a less embarrassing job as some sort of laborer? learn to drive a forklift in a warehouse, how to fit pipes, how to fix power lines, assisting in any of these while you learn, etc.?
Even do any of these while you get some IT cert or something? I'm sure you're a nerd.
Maybe cooking somewhere? If you have to work a cash register do it somewhere with a hobby you like maybe?