>>8619564I've been feeling depressed since Thanksgiving. I think I finally realized that I was wasting my life doing nothing to help myself as I see other people enjoying the holidays with their friends and family and seeing that I have nobody to spend it with. Valentines day coming up only puts the hurt even more in my heart. I've only eaten one meal a day for a few months due to a lack of appetite and no interest in anything and I have lost weight because of it. I just feel emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually drained. I was so stuck in a corner I went and prayed to Christ himself and ask if he would lead me in the right direction and ever since then I've noticed so many signs, some of which make me feel even more depressed and have given me thoughts that are stuck in my mind rent free that I spend all day thinking about and terrible thoughts in my head that were very uncharacteristic of me. Almost psycho tier thoughts thanks to the rage I had in me. It was legit scary for me. I had to pray to Christ even harder and I repented this time. I asked for forgiveness of every sin I had committed and every terrible thought that had crossed my mind and I did so with much emotion. Since then I've noticed a change. I still have that pain inside but now I unironically feel more motivated than ever before to accomplish something. The past few days I have been exercising more and more when usually I try for 30 minutes and give up due to lack of motivation.... (1/2)
