>>62901807You know, one of the really fucked up things about shondo is that she fantasizes about her child-self being brutally killed is because she despises that aspect of herself and who she is today for being weak and vulnerable. It's a fucked up thing that happens with extreme forms of abuse where the psyche will divide along the lines of the child and adult self with the latter despising the former for not having had the means to protect themselves during such instances. At It's worse, this expands to a loathing and the kind of grotesque, sexually violent fantasies that we observe in many of her fans. Many of them may suffer from repressed complexes in common where her innocent characterization is simultaneously sought out as connecting with their lost innocence but also something that they paradoxically envision themselves destroying in heinous fashion to further sever themselves from it. The personification of them as Black Vikings takes on a remarkable prescience in light of this.
