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I'm not an idiot and I believe majority of anons here are not idiots too. I know that my oshi either hates me or thinks nothing of me. I know she sees me as nothing but ATM machine or subscriber count. I believe that deep down everyone here understands that too. Think about it, vtubing is an entertainment industry. It's disgusting and shallow business that cultivates worst in people. No one works here with a thought of making fans happier or with a desire to make content that fans enjoy. There are only two reasons to work here: easy money and fame. I believe that any woman who wants to work in this industry is narcissistic at best and borderline sociopath at worst. I understand that and as I said before, I believe you, the reader, know this too. Yet when I see my oshi perform on stage I feel nothing but desire for her to preform more and reach even higher. And I hate myself for that. I hate myself that I got trapped, charmed by the woman who hates my guts. This is not sustainable. What should I even do? Abandon this hobby forever without ever looking back or pretend, like most anons here, that everything is fine and sunshine, pretend that this is how it is supposed to be? Please give me the answer. I want resolution. I want to know that someone, somewhere struggles with this as I do.
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