>>3894796https://vocaroo.com/1c6WusW2GEF0this time you don't live
>>3894917Reps are supposed to be about you not your oshi, she realistically won't care but still would like you better than the lesser being you are now. everything in your life is for you to improve you and/or your significant other (obtainable).
or go full schizo and make a journal where you talk with her, at the end of the day you're nothing to them but a fan.