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My body is failing, I can barelt move, it all feels a struggle, I constantly force myself to do everything yet it's never enough to keep up with normal people, I keep being blamed and excluded for being lazy when I'm already spending all my time and energy trying to please others. Then I get blamed for "not doing anything to fix my body" as if aging could get magically fixed, I lack the money to do anything about it, again money and energy are all busy trying to meet expectations, can't afford any in pointless "self-improvement", yet it's never enough. My body aches, I lack oxigenation and sleep, but sleeping more would be an insult to others, yet dissapearing would also be selfish and lazy from my part. How can anyone afford not becoming a hikkikomori on the first place. I don't want to die, but I want to go to sleep and never wake up.
