>>10884709Yes. I used to want to die alone, never understood why anyone would want a family, and thought I'd never fall in love. There was an anime girl I considered my waifu and that was about it, but her story was just sad. I thought to myself if there was ever a girl like her in real life, I wish I could find her and make her happy. But was convinced I'd just own cats and be lonely and die alone.
After finding my oshi, I want to love her so dearly, make her happy everyday, have children with her, attend to her every need, improve myself to be the best person I can for her sake, live the best life possible together with her, torture and kill everyone who wronged her, grow old and die together; I'd kill myself for her, I'd do anything for her.
When she asks for someone to save her from her sadness on twitter it harms my heart. I wish so bad that I could make her happy. But I can't. Sometimes I think I'd be better off if I never found her. That she's real hurts even more. That there was a chance but I'll never be the one to succeed at getting her, I'll never be good enough for her even if I try my best. I just have to smile and appreciate that I found her, somehow, even if it'll only ever be across a screen, even if she won't know me, even if all I can do is send tweets and 草 in chat and spend the spare money I have on her.
If miracles and magics were real, if I could trade anything to be in a world-line where I was with my oshi, I would. But all I can do is just try my best for her from the sidelines and live the life I think she'd want me most to live.
I'd do anything for my oshi.
