>>8082793afterwards i felt a subtle relief like some weight had been lifted off me that i didnt know was there weighing on me. Now, the dark thoughts dont hit as hard as they used to, and they dont last long. i guess what i had done had some therapeutic effect on me. im not "happier" but i feel much less on edge and the suicidal thoughts have basically nearly stopped. i mean i do still get random bouts of it, but i can more easily 'think' my ought of them. i feel changed. so basically, whats on my mind right now is, where do i take this? i have a simple no responsibility job, but it pays little, i need to get a better job, and im afraid of that change. despite all that ive said, i feel scared still of moving up and gaining more responsibility, i will do my best. I have to; i owe it to myself and to young me. 2/2
oh also, i know this pic isnt wall paper sized, but it is my work. what do you guys think? i mean it fits kinda on my screen lol. hope you all have a good night rests, god bless.
