>>58292468Were your parents religious? Some Christians see masturbating as the sin of lust, so if you do it you could go to Hell. You could get out of going to Hell if you were truly sorry for masturbating and never did it again.
I didn't have it as bad as you or the other anon, but my mom is religious and I decided to opt out of sex ed myself because I somehow concluded on my own that learning about sex would be something that she wouldn't want me to do. I guess I was associating sex with lust and lust with sin. For some reason I thought that I'd get in trouble or not seem to be a model son if I didn't vehemently object to sex ed. I also knew she didn't want me watching R-rated movies, and so one class I had to watch one, but we were supposed to have parents sign a slip. She only signed it because the school would've made me write a 2000 word essay as the alternate other assignment, where if I just watched the movie, that was all I had to do.
As a kid, Mom caught me grinding into the carpet and told me not to do it, and I just replied that it felt good, but I stopped. I'd hump my hands in my bed until I got hard and then I'd stop, getting annoyed about getting hard. Some sitcoms would talk about stealing Victoria Secret, so I thought that was a normal thing to do and would sometimes sneak a peak at underwear in a catalog because I thought that was normal. I didn't really desire to do it. Kind of like the time I took a picture of my babysitter's jean-covered ass only because the other boys kept calling her hot. I didn't see it. For the record, I'm not gay, I'm an aspie. Anyway, I first came in my jeans one time and realized that hard was better than soft because you finish. Been fapping. Got into porn because of a friend talking about it sometime between ages 13-16. Knew it was bad, but couldn't stop watching. Because I regularly fap I never ran into wet dream issues. Only in the past 2 years did I discover that wet dreams happen if you don't fap & guys need to.
