>>20760627this entire reply chain revolves around me being too retarded to do anything like that
people would probably find me too "radical" anyway
>>20760633if someone were to say something for example like "tell me about yourself" i would run through dozens of different thoughts and ways to respond all at the same time and be unable to think of anything acceptable until i realize i haven't thought of a reply within a reasonable amount of time then think how they must think i'm a retard for not saying anything and get stuck in a loop until hopefully they say something else or something breaks up the silence
i don't know if that explained it well, i actually got caught in the loop a little trying to describe the process