>>22799934Homelessness isn't that bad and if you're halfway clever you can use it to save money fast and create better opportunities for yourself instead of simply existing paycheck to paycheck. If you're not 1pbtid and are interested in being productively homeless I can elaborate.
>my only chance is to cripple myselfThis would be a catastrophic mistake. You have a good opportunity to get into the best shape of your life.
>fake mental illnessesDoesn't sound fake in your case.
