>>21663564usually twice per day but I probably spent almost an hour per day on porn. The best part is not even the coom anymore, it's that feeling of scrolling when you can see 100's of videos at once and you can hoover over the videos to see the preview. You don't want to commit to that one video that attracted you because you MIGHT stroll along an even hotter video... So time consuming man.
And the shit I watch is also pretty much filled with the most taboo, most degenerate stuff designed to fry my brain receptors to get that ultimate dopamine hit. It's really fucking up my brain, I think. I've already had many dreams about just watching porn, like really watching it on a website, not seeing it in person. Also sometimes after I'm done, I see scenes of porn when I close my eyes as if it are pictures burned into my eyes.
To answer your other question, I'm only 21 and the addiction has been building over some years, since I've been a teen, getting more and more fucked up to get this point. So that worries me because I'm still so young you know. Where will this shit end? I know if I keep going on this path there might be a real chance I end up one time in a hotel room in Thailand, high on drugs, doing all sorts of degenerate shit with ladyboys and the sort.
Thanks for reading my blog. You should call me a faggot or something, it might help me to change my shit
