>>968554I cry a lot. But I've been crying less since I've been taking medication again. I take it on and off. I go to college and socialize. It's just hard. I go to the gym but it's an on and off thing. I'm trying to fix myself. I just don't want to lower my standards. I don't even think my standards are high at all. I'm able to get attractive girls, I just can't stay in a relationship because my personality is shit. And I'm fucking a social sometimes. I know what I have to do though. I'm just venting. You're right, my first love failed because I was too much of a depressive bitch. And I still haven't gotten over it.