>>9917769You're just caught up in a dream that there is some problem. The idea that there is a problem is buying off something for you.
Bring clarity to your self and you will realise that the problem is something you're doing deliberately in the process of running some account with yourself. Probably, the account is to do with excusing laziness, cause you're afraid to have to show that you give a fuck by taking initiative.
When you realise you are causing the problem you can choose to stop. When there is no problem there, your character will naturally find enriching modes and you will realise that none of your time before was actually wasted.
