>>21457616Yeah you're right but it generally also just gets lost together with your childishness. It's funny though that I observe how men, even as they get older, have phases of 3-6 months where they get really obsessed with a hobby or subject but then drop it from one day to the other. I really wonder what causes that. Also what's really a shame is my midwit mental capacity combined with my high expectations of myself. It's rarely enough to keep the cycle of motivation rolling and I get frustrated with myself. This even happens with the few things I actually like doing such as chemistry.
My brain works like this; If I was able to leary X in Y time, it's obviously not impressive. If I was able to achieve it there's nothing to be happy about, I should have obviously learned it faster. If I wasn't able to even reach my goals, we'll I overestimated myself, how cringe. This isn't worth my time
