>>6572097>be me>last born of five kids>always treated as the "baby">low test (testosterone declines with each sequential child. Look it up.)>still somehow avoid being complete manlet>get "manly" facial aesthetics and hair>feel like a kid>no self-esteem>got hardened by life>work blue collar jobs, hang around criminals, spent some time homeless>alpha facade>deep down I'm still a little boy that wants "mummy">every relationship I'm in I would like the girl to lead>but she wants "daddy">so I have to take controlI fucking hate this. And it's impossible for me to ever be in a relationship with the dynamic I want. I look too rugged and manly. I can't be a cute "smol boi" and have /gfd/ "mommy" girlfriend. All the girls I end up with are leftists with daddy issues.