>>11143292not to mention I'm still shit at using money rationally, I know fuck about real life and nobody's willing to explain it to me and I don't even know what I should look for as nobody tells me shit
the best course of action would've always been for me to work one year starter to get drivers licence, one year midpay to buy me a car snd have some investments in the rainy day fund and then start college, but nooooooo, they just had to push me from all sides, told me I was an idiot for not going
well I caved in and look where it got me? tgat's right I didn't move an inch and I got rapid progression on both shizophrenia and depression, destroyed any and all relations I had with my housemates and got labeled as a failure; I'm soooooo glad I had the priviliedge to go to university right away and take someone's place
today I had another fight with my sister where she acised me of putting all blame on her and mum when in reality all I was going for is that it was nobody's fault, nobody could've predicted corona, I never studied at home and it's no brainer that once I was stuck at home I would never study, but if blame is being shifted around I'd say some of the blame is on them aswell, though I still fail to see how I'm to blame for anything as my biology and modus operandi remained the same and were uncompatible with situation I was found in, bit if I said that I'd be seen as pretentions and get called and arse instead as if ad hominems have ever been actual arguments
>another oneno it wouldn'tve, three wishes was monkee paw and it happened unexpectedly once I found 3 consequentive 4 leaf clovers
