>>12146797I don't know. I was very much in love with her when I first met her but it has kind of faded over time but it's not like I don't like her anymore.
>>12146798>what mental block is telling you to wait?I'm just unsure and scared of failure. What if we marry and it turns out to be nothing but a waste? What if she can't bear children or does me harm? What if I can't be a good husband and do her harm? What If I'm unable to provide her with the things she needs and wants? I don't even have my own real place yet, I'm just renting a room in my brothers house and I don't think my job can provide for 2 let alone 3 or 4 people.
I'm also scared of intimacy, mostly because of my abusive mother. I've only been with 2 other women in the past and they both brought me misery. Maybe I'm just being childish
