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>I was immeasurably displeased with this but I did not say anything
>I made my knowledge of the Jewish people, and the negros, and the Italians quite clear
>this made her quite uncomfortable as I mentioned it early on in our relationship
>but I would have never expected this
>I kept my thoughts on the Anglos and the foreigners to my letters exclusively after that
>if I wanted to marry her, I would have to change
>and so I did
>in 1924 I proposed to her and we were going to be wed
>due to anxiety, I had overreacted when my writer friends mentioned sexual activity
>it was something I was completely foreign to
>I went through my 34 years of life a virgin
>and I missed out on young love
>it was something that my ignorance overcame
>my mother never expected me to fall in love due to my abhorrent appearance, so I remained anxious
>I knew I had to study this before we were wed
>in order to be well-acquainted with sexual intercourse, I purchased several books educating me on such
>I hid them in my room, and would read them when there was no other
>the only people who knew were my writer friends (who I despised when they mocked me for it)
>it was enough to make me a conscientious lover though, and that was what mattered
>soon after, our wedding day came
>and I had never felt more happy
>I had lost everyone and lived a life of loneliness for so long
>and now I had a beautiful wife and lovely daughter
>I couldn't ask for more, I thought
>initially it was stressful, and the constant mentioning of the word "sex" had angered me, provoking my friends to further the conversation on such a prudish topic
>but I had gotten over all of that
>life seemed great
>my career seemed decent
>I felt satisfied
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