>>16402262>sometimes it feels likethink you have told
i think you dont need me telling you "durrrrrrrrr thats not really rational" cause you already know that
and other than that its up to you to deal with really cant help much
its just how you are i guess, maybe dont look at it as something fixable if thats what youre thinking
might just be your nature that u cant really change
and if so then its what it is
wont kill you (hopefully)
and it plays a part in making you who you are so whatever thats fine by me
for me its just laziness i feel like lol
if im not already typing then i dont feel like typing
in instant messaging its the worst i almost never wanna reply to people
on imageboards i do this though
unless im shitposting that is then its better in instant messaging
but actually talking with people in there, idk its a bother to me and makes me feel like my soul is draining, like a chore
like u said not every single time i guess but happens
and its natural i guess so i dont care to make myself stop doing this either
anyway even if you feel like that if you consciously force yourself to then u can just send a message over to someone im sure
also thinking about it more honestly its not even that irrational or anything lol
if ur having these long conversations with people then yeah, having something in mind that you wanna talk about before doing so is not a bad thing
nor is wanting to be in a good mood before talking
maybe thats why i dislike instant messaging as well i dont really wanna make some really boring small talk and not really have anything to actually go on about
but theres also the thing where conversations lead into each other
like u might not have something in your mind to talk about, but when you message someone and a couple of things get brought up then it can turn into a full on convo just like any other
so you should consider that as well, its not impossible to talk to someone if you dont have things in mind
