>>17769953in short
You have to get people in your life. Just don't try to grapeape some carrying cutie on a dark street thinking they want anything to do with your non-nigger penis in need of relief.
Something's gotta change. And it has to be you. Start writing out realistic things you want to do. And then see if you can do them despite all of the doubts in your head and from clinical psychopaths on here looking to toy with fragile losers to chalk up some suicide points. At least prepare yourself to walk up to the door and tap to see if everyone is right. Play that numbers game. And get a new job. Anything. If only to meet new people and not be stuck i nsome shitty tapped out rut. And your health, stop drinking immediately. Stop all cozy, self-stroking behaviors and patterns. "but it's all i got, man" Then stay that
>man 