>>23124460I quit drinking after my birthday on Monday. It occurred to me that if I don't slow down or stop, I'll be in trouble in a few years when all of the doctors are completely reliant on ChatGPT to know fucking anything. I started drinking while working in fintech 24/7 after they laid off a ton of people and some fucking retarded jeet manager overpromised shit to a big client, and I wound up having to fucking build it. I couldn't sleep without it.
Now, my dreams are coming back a lot, but that might also be because I've slowed down smoking weed a ton too. Sobriety sucks, and I have a hernia so I can't do any fun compound lifts, so I have to do fucking cardio to wear myself out enough to sleep. It didn't work last night and I'm still fucking awake for some reason.
I'd love to drink a bunch tonight but the urge to do it out of habit is gone and at this point I think it'd just keep me awake.
I was living with one of my good friends, and his bitch spic wife. She hits him, has put holes in the walls, and berated one of our friends that she didn't do anything to help her sister after her sister's suicide (we got her sister's phone and saw she reached out to the bitch wife begging for help right before it happened, and bitch didn't respond). She took him to visit her family, and they ambushed my boy saying their dog was sick and made him shell out like $6K on the spot, wiped him out completely. She demanded I leave so her fucking illegal immigrant family could come stay in the house for vacation for a week. That lit shit up in our larger friend group, and while we love our boy, we all hate his wife. She won't let him talk to us anymore. We miss him, but he's trying to make his marriage work. It might kill him in the end.
Now I live with 2 strangers. It's getting harder to see a future worth living in, and now I don't get to look forward to my 6 Voodoo Rangers every night.
All I want is to kill the Demiurge. Nothing in this material world is worth it.
