>>19193142i was atheist from ages 11-18.
i fixed it by taking 100ug of LSD.
Had ego death. Felt the presence of god. I'm not so sure about the orthodoxy of various religions but one thing is absolutely certain to me: god is real.
Try meditation, maybe. Don't take drugs to have mystical or spiritual experiences, like I did. Its much more likely that you'll just damage yourself psychologically. research and try to understand concepts like the Trinity -- it is present in many belief systems, even going back to norse paganism.
the protestants were right. The Kingdom of God is Within You.