>>10281794Those moments are short while the disappointment and pain lasts a lifetime. Oh sure everyone wants to say it gets better but it doesn't. It's a revolving door of neglect and disappointment. Why should I even try at all? I'm not worth anything. I'm long past my prime and everything about me is going to pot faster than a pumpkin after Halloween. I don't blame anyone for shying away from me or abusing me or neglecting me. It's what I deserve. It's what I'll always get. I give my everything then it gets cast aside by everyone. I'm left to suffer in isolation and have to come to this wretched place just to get some kind of respite from all the horrible memories and feelings.
I just want to be loved. To be cared about. To have someone by my side that actually cares but they're all liars and cons. Once I show that I have pain or that I've got issues they turn tail and run. Years wasted. Tears evaporate into the air like any emotion someone gives to me. With time all things wilt and die. Around me they rot.
I'm the ugly boi and that's all I'll ever be unless a boi wants to test their sexuality then I'm the test boi to be discarded like the piece of garbage I am. I'm disposable. Replaceable. Worthless. I'm fucking broken inside. There's something wrong with me now. Not that I was all there to begin with but now I've just made myself worse. A walking corpse slowly rotting ffrom the inside out waiting for someone to just finally fucking kill me so I can move on.
>>10281804YEAH YOU HEARD ME FFFFFFAAAAAGGGGOOOOTTTT
I don't need your hugs or anything from someone who knows nothing about me. YOu can't care for me. You think everything can be fixed with a few sweet words and a hug? Well guess what that kind of shit is what causes this kind of damage in the first place. A few honeyed words and physical affection. Your words turn to ash in my mouth and you choke me with your embrace. Broken.
