>>15764912>Upwards of... 5 yearsThat's a lot, yeah. Just human nature that you've grown negative feelings towards it, I think. A job will definitely do something, and I hope for the better.
>I guess if I manage to keep surviving.You will, don't worry about it. I think you're already doing the best you can, so, keep it up and you'll reach that goal, and things will be a million times better once you do.
>I mean you're right but at the same time Yeah, I sadly know the feel with that, no worries. I meant more so that, I'm sure that once you unite with the person you like and everything, you'll grow to be far more willing to do things you want to, just by yourself. Sorry again that you're going through it, but, just try to use that as motivation to always keep going, good luck.
>They drive me insaneAh, yeah, I'm not on the level of paranoia with them, I forget that they exist until I see an insect, but, I just go running the moment that I do finally see one. I get too scared to look at even the tiniest little speck of blood or anything after killing a fly, cause I'm that grossed out by them. Just why do they have to exist.
