>>3923223If OP is still there heed my words:
I was in almost your exact same position. Around 21 at the time, 6'5" rather than the other way around but facial and full body acne scars like fucking deadpool.
I spent many days contemplating suicide. My brother left his guns lying all over the house. He left a 12 gauge shotgun leaning against the wall where I was asking 4chan for advice on avoiding suicide too.
What I did was hung in there, not in a faggy "it'll be sunshine and rainbows later" kind of way, a rather tiresome way where I believed it'd take more than I'd ever put into anything to get myself out of this hole my mind was in.
I worked on myself bit by bit. Went from an obese disgusting fatass to someone sort of normal-fat. Spent my time on /pol/ sifting through the shitposts to find actual conversations with people, even if anonymously.
Fast forward 6 years, actually got a GF somehow (they can sense the confidence) and I'm still broke as fuck and uneducated, HOWEVER, I genuinely am glad to be some poor, uneducated redpilled /pol/fag than some nobody who died 6 years ago taking the pussies way out.
When civil war 2: electric boogaloo kicks off, we'll need you.
