>>23818268>I do TRY to have discipline. Perhaps it is because I’m alone, but I feel like I have no control over myself and I can do whatever I want. And I just hate this feeling, and I wish there was some form of punishment. I guess I want to live up to someone, or something.sounds like you're just anhedonic, anon
discipline isn't sustainable unless it's something you give a fuck about in the long term
although i can also guarantee you'd feel 4x worse if you weren't in good physical shape, so you should keep exercising if possible
