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on recovery
first is obviously to recognize its a problem.
you're not a horrible person for it but some things will happen that make you feel like you are.
most alcoholism isn't just a fun retarded thing its a self medicating thing. maybe you got hurt so bad you couldn't deal with it.
and what that specifically was doesn't matter now because now you're in a situation where you're addicting to something and you need to get out.
if you have a problem reach out to professionals. you won't be able to do it by yourself, you're in a down state and asking for help isn't a crime.
unfortunately after a time you'll see everyone as your enemy. they're preventing you get what you need to live and you'll hate them. they'll tell you to stop. they'll try blackmail, threats, they'll even try crying and one day they might give up.
you've got to forgive yourself but you've got to forgive them.
go to rehab or a less invasive program, expect slip ups after you leave but don't blame yourself. nobody said you didn't deserve to be alive but if you let alcohol have its way with you, you'll eventually die.
