>>15916745I guess the best is a middle ground, like, too tired to have time awareness, but not tired enough to be barely keeping your head up. Right now, while I'm completely rested and all, it feels like I'm registering every single minute rather than it just passing by.
>YepAh, cool. They're really good, cause, you still have a bit of consciousness in there while seeing them, it's almost lucid, but not really. I feel like they're better than usual dreams. It sucks that whenever you have them, it's in a place where you have to stay awake. I wish you could just command your brain to start having those mini-dreams, whenever you felt like it. If only the human brain was more compliant.
>feels like too much.Very fair. But you've support, and you'll simply get through it, so, things are alright if you think of it that way. I think you got pretty fortunate to land the job at this period, right in time with house issues coming up. So, things seem bright for you, I feel like. It'll get even better.
>I've been trying I see, I suppose that's the most you can do. The feelings you can't help, but, if you consciously and logically think by things, I think you'll always come to the conclusion that you don't deserve to be hard on yourself. Now, I don't know your whole life and everything you've done, but from talking, I really don't see a reason to not be gentle on yourself. The environment you're in being harsh isn't a product of your faults, at all. You're still doing the best you can through it instead of simply giving up, which, the majority of others would likely do if put in your overall situation. If you feel like being tough on yourself because you're not doing as much as you should, then, that's not the case at all, quite the opposite. Pretty sure you're doing as much as you fairly could, you're pretty alright, don't worry over it.
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