>>19294460God isn't real and you are as pathetic to blame him as you are to complain to santa as to why you didn't get the presents you want.
You are a very sickly needy man anon, this come through very strongly in your post.
You haven't yet come to terms with solitude.
Only the animal in you crys for the child.
You have not yet over come animal in yourself.
Any child you would make would be mutilated by these defects.
Until you can accept isolation do not seek companionship.
You will become nothing more than a plaything of a woman.
You are still merely the plaything of your instincts with no insight into your yearning.
