Somehow, I recently became a NEET. I had a successful life as a bartender. I was living with a beautiful woman and I was about a month away from asking her to marry me when all of a sudden she decided she was a lesbian. Fuck me. My life was turned upside down. I left my city, my job, my girlfriend, my dog, and most of my friends to come move in with my mom and her husband. I spent my meagre savings traveling for a few months and now I'm here. I'm almost in shape enough to join the Army in my late 20's. Though I'm looking forward to learning new things and hardening myself, it's hard to not feel stupid as fuck for being at square 1, around 10 years after moving out of my mom's house.
Time is a flat circle and whatnot.
But here I am. Reading /x/, /k/, and /pol/ every day, becoming either more deluded or more clued in as to what the world around me is becoming, but ultimately realizing that through discipline, I have the ability to change the world around me through my knowledge and passion. In the last week, I've had the balls to bring up the JQ "hypothetically" to two liberal friends, when 2 months ago, I considered myself a left anarchist. Who am I? What am I becoming? Is /pol/ right, yet again?
Ultimately, reading here and reading the less vitriolic NatSoc posts have really dragged me in. One thing that leftism really clued me into was disenfranchisement. Bernie Bros get it, they really do. But such things as giving up identity, unfettered "feminism," and general sexual liberation really never sat well with me. Ironically, while bartending/the service industry really makes people cut loose, it made me cloister up and realize that everyone around me was actually hurting themselves. I quit porn, I quit masturbating, I quit smoking, I quit drinking, I work out every day while listening to podcasts I find stimulating, I read news, I do yardwork, I spend time in the sunshine, and I talk to you guys. My time in isolation has been great. Thanks, /pol/.
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