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I spent my 24th birthday in the loony bin last year over a suicide attempt.
Was given blanket diagnosis of manic depressive(bippolar), clinical depression, extreme anxiety disorder, and chronic OCD, on the lower end of the autism spectrum.
Zoloft is great, and im on gabupentin and buspar 3 times a day because the shrink knew i'd just abuse the zanax.
I'm also extremely alcholic, went to rehab after i got out, but relapsed after 2 months. I'm back to a pint of shit vodka a night, sometimes more.
I hate withdrawals, I hate DT's, I love the feeling of being drunk, but everything else that comes with it is terrible.
I don't want to die anymore, I just want my serenity and bliss back. I want to feel the way I did before I fell into this hell hole. I want that warm and fuzzy feeling I get from nice things in life, and when I do feel it, my backwards ass thinking brain just wants to drown in it in booze.
At least I'm not a robot, android is not that bad I guess.
