>>21658773>I have to ask, how many guys are feeling something similar today. Waking up wishing they were dead because of alcohol?Lost my gf of 4 years and the only person I talked to because I got shit faced at a wedding and woke up in the drunk tank. There's 2 types of blackout drunk nights - most types where you just either puke, slur words, and pass out peaceully. Then there's what I call the "demonic possession" nights, which is what you and I had, OP. This happened to me a handful of times, and I'm not entirely sure what the connection is, whether it's related to sleep, hydration levels, vitamin imbance, nutrition deficiencies on said given night, etc... but there were some nights where I just became a total unhinged lunatic, when I'm very calm and try to be respectful and giving as a person. People would explain the things I said and did, and I literally could not belive that's who I was in that moment. Idk about your religious views, but some people say dark spirits can use your body as a skinsuit for a couple hours when you drink, and my experiences make it hard to disagree with that sentiment. It's safe to say my life went 100 to 0 in the span of a few hours.
Anyway, that time was the last and never touched a drop again. Some of us need to hit rock bottom like I did to really get it. It was 2 years ago now, down to 0 gfs and 0 friends, and I can't say my life has improved much, but at least this piece of shit liquid can't hurt me anymore than it already has. Just never drink again man, the awful experience you went through is convincing enough.
