>>7941747I relate a lot with you and enjoyed reading your thread. Also I really do believe that there is Jesus or a figure/will/underflow of goodness and understanding. I think it would be impossible for their not to be an element in all the universe that gets me, past the onion on a basic level, and that his knowing/observing is an acknowledgement/validation of the chaos in my head that dies when I forget it, the thoughts and weaknesses that lead to my sins, my perspective in times where it would seem there is no witness but myself. Without the goodness and understanding of Jesus I am truly alone in a basic way that can't be remedied no matter how many people I rub on or blurg words to, no matter how much you love them no one understands fully except Jesus, and that is the core of my faith in him and how I can consolidate that faith with skepticism of flesh stories.
