>>11523999if they are unreachable it's a moot point
the only thing that matters is selection, if you can't select- detach
>whatsociety, sight of people caudes my blood to boil
to be frank I'm not going to pretend I know the cause, but in return I request the decision not be made instead of me, maybe it's innate fear and resentment towards humen, maybe it's toxoplasmosis, maybe it's behavioural and can be treated and maybe it's inherent and can only be treated symptomaticaly- I can't deduce where the root of the problem is, experts in human psychology don't want to figure it out, I know what "medicine" I have to take to treat the symptoms.... I justify my actions as such, I don't have choices that I am comfortable in partaking- as going to psych would possibly just land me in a ward
>patiencethe only reason I managed to survive retail is because I'm inherently patient, however, the first week sickness was entirely unnecessary and could've been avoided by 3 2mg diazepam pills- like keys to the gate are given to you anx you're afraid of taking them because "muh dependance"; dependance schmependance, I take painkillers to ease the pain and it's my right to do that- why shouldn't I take "painkillers" for emotional and psychological pain after everything I've been through?
>infusionyou missunderstand, in that teabag theres still dry herbs that once poured over with boiling water infuses the water with hydrophilic substances making an infusion, it does taste better when you just add herbs directly but both of those are infusions
>addictiveso is breathing air, you know, when I stop breathibg for 2 minutes I feel dizzy and I start to faint; I wish I never started breathing to begin with, too much hassle to maintain too little to gain...
