>>6507203Mayhaps you're going through a midlife spiritual crisis, OP? I, too, struggle with depression, my entire life, also with suicidal ideation, so know that you're not alone in this struggle. Seek professional counseling is my advice. Meds can help, in a limited way. You'll need to rewire your brain processes. Do an RCA on these feelings of yours. fwiw, I've come closer to God through my struggles. Perhaps the Lord is putting some burden on your heart and mind to turn you back to Him.
