>>9760151>why take them if they make you see horrible shitit's not the addiction, atleast not to the psychadelics, I'd say it has something or other with weighing your benefits and drawback; feeling good and seeing things most people couldn't even dream of in exchange for going a bit coocoo is worth it
this or if it's a drug with horrible hangover it's only because the peak was so good it made it worth every second
>why do I keep usingnote that I was on a ~month long break and I was planning on going even further but alas social isolation doesn't really rub off me the way it used to
I'm trying to quit and keep my doses low as possible
>>9761481>your own placeI guess taking care of myself would allow for some spine growth
>is it that baddepends, when there are no larger problems like poverty, hunger, cold or anything other that would steer your mind off of your thoughts you have no choice but to ponder on the (in retrospect) most mundane shit you can come across; your brain's gears grinding each other, this is a modern phenomena, one that I dislike with distinct disdain
>leaving the house will feel strangeI was already on very edges of developing agoraphobia, the one tidbit of isolation that makes me mad is no progress on soc. int. with uni colleagues, death doesn't even come across as a possible escape route when I'm high, so I have no other option than to rely on their help to pass the year, then again when you don't talk to any of them you have what the american call: the inconveniance