>>4130017There is hope anon. I wanted to end it all at some point in my life as well. I'm aware of the cycle of Bliss and depression. I've done some bad things in my life, the guilt that builds up, thinking what could you ever do to be rid of it. It always seems to come up when things are going well.
One cannot redem themselves, we are not perfect. We are forgiven in our trespasses by Christ Jesus, the reedemer. We rest on him. I truely couldn't see how easy a path life was until I became born again, I once was blind but now I see.
It's not some vain thing people believe in, it really did happen. There is always a second chance. I know you don't think you deserve it, but we all do.