>>16652001>squandered some opportunities I had with girls I liked so I'm living with regrets.i really feel that, going through a complicated situation myself and i know the hurt it brings
>my idiot father doesn't want me living with himwhy is that if i may ask? unless he sexually or physically abused you i think that you should try to reach out to him and make amends, you are lucky to still have your dad, there are many whose parents aren't alive. even if it means putting yourself in a bit of a "cucked" position at first, trust me itll pay off in the long run and youll be the bigger man for wanting to bury the hatchet. he is very likely hurt by his childhood just the way you are and he subconsciously passed his wound onto you. im sure that if you analyse his thoughts and behaviours you will see a lot of your struggles in him
im a decade younger than you (and also feeling a bit dissociated tonight) so i honestly can't really give you indepth advice especially on employment stuff but you can do it anon, i really believe in you. if you get one thing out of me today its to please consider making amends with your dad, there is no reason to live in such spite