>>21892112>It really fucked up my self esteem for a few years with even a "kind" nice girl treating me like trashYou probably fell into the clutches of a BPDemon. They aren't nice, they are like carnivorous plants that appear to have juicy nectar to lure insects to their doom.
You need to lift in order to strengthen your body, which will strengthen your mind. Pull/push ups are a great start.